You see, I am quitting smoking. I have smoked since I was 11 years old and on average I am used to smoking 15-20 roll ups a day. I have not had a fag since the very early hours of the morning on New Year's Day, around 6am, when I was still drinking.
Since then I have not had a cigarette and the cravings have not been nearly as bad as I thought they would be. On January 1st I didn't really experience any cravings, mainly as I was too hungover. Yesterday I only experienced them after eating and exercise. Today it has been a very mild craving after each meal. But tonight? Tonight the coughing has started. My lungs are starting the process of rejecting all of the shit in them which isn't being replenished by my continuing to smoke. And it is this which is making the craving I am currently experiencing and have been experiencing for the past half an hour, more intense than I can handle.
I am seriously in two mins. I don't know whether I can have just one fag or whether having one would lead to several more throughout the rest of the night. And then if I have a fag what about tomorrow? What about when I wake up and think to myself, 'Well, smoking isn't really that bad'. The craving has even made me question my reasons for quitting; which are purely that of my health.
I don't want to put three days to waste.
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